Archive for February, 2012

Say Hello and Wave Goodbye

Posted: February 27, 2012 in Uncategorized

Yes I got the post title from David Gray’s song that I am listening to for the first time right now.  I feel the title it is appropriate though.  As I have put the blog off for the past week I have been thinking about writing it so much.  There is so much to say, so I will be doing a couple blogs this week to keep everyone up with what is going on.

Lets get down to it.  It has been a month since Joy and I drove up to the Mile High City.  We have met struggles, comfort, accountability, and encouragement during this month.  I personally can’t express how hard it was to leave my family behind.  I shed many many tears because of the process of leaving what I know, to go out on this journey.  There have been times I have thought, “Lord have I caused pain and possible sickness through my decision?”  When this comes up it always seems that God is there reminding me of the fact that this IS His will.  So Joy has had laryngitis for over 9 weeks and there has been times of tears spilled over this.  There have been crazy things happen in which would turn minds away from the task at hand but the Lord has kept us going forward.  So how is it that so much seems crazy and we are walking through?  Through obedience in our move to Denver the Lord has walked next to us every step of the way.  We moved looking forward to helping the start of a church that is built around the gospel, community, and missions.  Not only does Emmaus Church have those things but they have been put on display towards Joy and I through every step here.  We have been ministered to, fed well, loved on, encouraged, held accountable, prayed for, and driven to love the Lord more.  Everything we thought could happen has and more.  Everyday that we are here we are taken back to the way church should have been all along. How is church happening in the middle of a city full of people that do not care about God?  How is it that people that don’t care about each other in the city are being reached by folks that are willing to step out and love?  The Holy Spirit has  been busy and so our smiley faces have come into the middle of darkness where people would look at us as outcasts.  This is not the bible belt anymore.  Our journey is new everyday in a foreign place.  So with all that is happening which seems hard it seems like everything is falling into place perfectly.  I can’t wait to see the next day.

Here is a real quick glance at blessings that have been happening lately.  Joy had to step down from her job in which was our only income.  Within a couple days of this we received donations from various people that gave us just under the amount of our rent, so we will make it another month!  We have been shown that we need to expect to be ministered to here from people at the church.  This caused me to take into account that I want to hold on to pride and keep pressing on.  That is not right in our journey to glorify God.  Thanks for dinner and a game of clue the Lord has shown us that we are not only ministering to people but being ministered to. Wake up and smell the Keurig, or roses for those of you who don’t have a Keurig.  I have been able to get to know great people that want to love the Lord just like us and I have met many people that do not know our Lord at all.  I have not had a dull moment.  Keep checking back in the next couple days as I sort through some thoughts, whats going on, and stories of things that have happened specifically.


My Favorite Blog Thus Far

Posted: February 16, 2012 in Uncategorized

I am sick and have been for a couple days.  I am going to make this short and sweet if possible but I have to tell more about what is going on.  Over 7 weeks ago Joy came down with a cold and lost her voice.  The doc told her she had laryngitis and she was doing everything under the sun to help her throat.  She was making herself hot teas with honey and other junk in it as well as other home remedies (one included vinegar).  A couple weeks pass and though she has anti-biotics, many home remedies, nothing is working.  We have this beautiful wedding where all I can remember is the beauty of God and it shining right through her, but still only a whisper from her mouth.  I could hear her say I Do, but I don’t know if anyone else could.  We went on our honeymoon and her voice seemed a little better but that is the best it has gotten.  She hasn’t changed.  So over 7 weeks, almost 8, and a little better has become the norm.  Somedays its bad, but most of the time it stays at the level a little above a whisper.  At this point we have gone through a nose spray, 2 steroid packs, 2 anti-biotic packs, and a steroid shot.  Because Joy is my wife I can truly say that she is hott no matter what she sounds like but I must admit that we have no idea what is going on.

We came to Denver because God showed us His will is here.  We followed because we knew we could minister.  So far I don’t know that we have been able to do that much.  Joy got a job as an admissions counselor and for the past 2 weeks she has been training but the bomb dropped out today.  We knew if she wasn’t better by the time training was up that she may not be pushed through.  So what do we do?  If she stops now she would be able to possibly go back and do training next month, but she would have to drop out now.  Or should we lose the job completely?  We chose the first.  So we went to an ear, nose, and throat doctor today and he said that her right vocal cord is paralyzed.  The scope I watched had to be the coolest thing ever, but even I could see that there was something wrong.  A CT scan was ordered today and we go in in the morning to see if there are any growths or abnormalities causing this.  I don’t know what it will be but I will only follow our Lord and minister to my wife.  There are possibilites of what could be outcomes of the CT scan.  Some outcomes are good in a way and then some are what would seem horrible to me.  Either way, should that change the fact that we are living life to serve our King?  Jesus is still on His throne and Joy and I are going to walk in His ways.  Joy went back in to training afterwords and within 5 minutes I was picking her up because they did not want her to stay at training.  So now we neither have jobs, have no idea what the future holds, we are both sick, and we both could be lost.  The great thing is we are not lost.  Jesus saved us from being His enemy and He will reclaim His own.  At that time He will find us faithful, no matter what, to His kingdom.  We can’t afford to let our health get in the way, our jobs (or lack there of) hold  us down, or relationships.  We must keep marching on to the calling of our Lord and the only one that truly saves us in the end.  He is our Hope and our Rock.  If you have a relationship with Him you understand what I am saying.  Some of you however are going through life with reckless abandon.  Your hopes are on the things that will fail you tomorrow or even by the end of the day.  Your life is only there because God gives it to you, yet you keep going in the same way towards your destruction.  I feel sorry for you.  I want to tell you how you can get help.  Let me know if I can do so.

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Verisimilitudinously Persevering

Posted: February 9, 2012 in Uncategorized

Verisimilitudinously?  Seriously?  Did I use this as a word in my vocabulary?  According to the Free Dictionary verisimiltudinously is defined as something that merely seems to be true or real, such as a doubtful statement.  Now this all makes sense to me.  So I guess that would mean that the title means seeming to persevere.  Ok.  I get it.  Now I can quit with the jargon and tell you why the title seems so perfect.  I find myself pinned up against the wall, either to have faith and keep pushing through the power of God or to keep at it on my own with little strength at all.

Moving to Colorado has been great but one of the hardest things I have ever done. PERIOD.  First of all I guess I should start by saying that I have no clue what it is like to be married, much less to get married and try to lead my wife into something that is so out of the box and crazy.  Yes, I have taken steps of faith and God has proven faithful….. but am I crazy?  Every moment spent awake I am fighting the evil one.  There is never a time in my apartment when I am trying to clean up, when I am trying to read, when I am trying to cook for Joy, that I am not at spiritual battle with the evil one.  All I have to hold onto is faith, wisdom, and to persevere.  This is a foreign concept it seems, though I have done this in my own life.  I must add that I have never had faith, wisdom, or definitely haven’t persevered on my own because, on my own, all I do is worry, have anxiety, feel depressed, useless, unworthy, and unable to go through life.  So how do I persevere?  How do I obtain any sort of truth, wisdom, faith, and clarity?  I simply plead for it in prayer and hold on to words of scripture.

I don’t know how people can go through life without realizing the simple truth that they are just appeasing themselves enough to get by in life.  I don’t want to be that way.  I don’t want to face this day or any other day without realizing the truth.  I don’t want to wake up tomorrow and have the same problem of wondering where my hope is and trying to fight myself through another day.  I would rather go through the day with peace because I have hope in Jesus because He already has taken care of me through the actions that He did on the cross and after.  So when it comes down to going it alone, or trying to do things myself, I am out.  I already give up because in the end I am dead without Jesus.  So perseverance?  Yeah I am persevering. I am not doing this on my own though, I am doing it only by the hope of Christ and through what He has done.  So upon my own power I would be doubtfully persevering or getting through my life on my own strength (which may or may not happen) but I am not doing things that way.  I am persevering with power because of Jesus upon whom my hope lies.  My hope is not in the things of this world.

James 1 is where its at.  Romans 8 has some great stuff too!

So today while being attacked by the evil one I will submit my right to worry, be depressed, or trying myself to make it through.  I will call upon the King that has made it through and will keep making it through.  That’s all that is needed on my part and all thats ever been needed.

Baby it’s cold outside…

Posted: February 7, 2012 in Uncategorized

You better believe that the weather is different here in Colorado!  So I hear about the mid 70’s happening in parts of Texas that I could be in right now, but I am here instead in freezing temperatures and learning how to drive in the snow.  It is all worth it when it comes to serving our Lord.  I have to admit that being here has weighed on me alot.  I miss the people that were in my every day life and even the  people that I didn’t get to hang out with alot.  I have thought about things alot lately when it comes to living here, so far from home.  With Joy having laryngitis still and going to the doctor I am starting to think about things such as, “what if something happens to one of us way up here?  What if I can’t find a job and Joy has medical things happen that keeps her from working?”  The truth is that the thoughts always come.  If I wasn’t in Denver and we were back home in the great state of Texas, other questions would be coming up.  Fear is something that has long been part of my life.  Anxiety is not something new that entered into the equation.

How does this all come together?  I moved to Denver in answer of God’s call to glorify Him and walk in His ways.  He has proven Himself over and over during this experience.  We went from having no money to being funded.  We watched as huge unplanned expenses have come up but donations came in and matched those within a day.  So with all this I have to look back over my life and enjoy the fact that my hope is upon Jesus, the Rock.  He is the cornerstone upon which everything is built.  As the leader of my home, I am still a servant that must understand this concept.

1 Corinthians 3:10 According to the grace of God given to me, like a skilled master builder I laid a foundation, and someone else is building upon it. Let each one take care how he builds upon it. 11 For no one can lay a foundation other than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. 12 Now if anyone builds on the foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw— 13 each one’s work will become manifest, for the Day will disclose it, because it will be revealed by fire, andthe fire will test what sort of work each one has done. 14 If the work that anyone has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward. 15 If anyone’s work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, but only as through fire.

In the end one thing is for certain and that is the things of this life will melt away but Jesus the Christ will still be upon His thrown and those that serve Him now will forever be able to serve Him.  That is my hope…. that is why fear, anxiety, and hard things that come along do not hinder Joy and I from walking in the path that God sets before us.  Our faith was placed in the work of Jesus and we are not our own, therefore, we are walking in light so that we may forever have this hope.

Matt Redman ” Carried by your constant grace, held within your perfect peace…  Never once, no we never walk alone.  Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did you leave us on our own.  You are faithful, God you are faithful.”

Could It Be?

Posted: February 2, 2012 in Uncategorized

Tonight we went out with Andy and his wife, plus 2 cute and awesome kiddos.  Joy and I were so excited to go and I grew even more excited as she was able to hear from Andy how Emmaus Church came about.  We were talking and enjoying food when the conversation turned for me.  I had mentioned how it was hard for me to separate from family and decide if we were suppose to go to Denver.  The next few moments blew me away after that, not just because of the great truth in it all, but because when I was fasting God showed me the same exact thing that Andy was telling us.  I felt as if God grabbed my hand tonight and said, “Hey do you remember this?  Do you remember what I showed you in the midst of your fast?  Thanks for coming and be ready to be used.”  Maybe that is weird sounding to some, but God seemed to confirm exactly what He stated to us in the beginning.  How awesome that He ask us to step in faith toward Him and that He would walk with us on this journey.  I am so thankful.

I have thought a couple of times about the opposite side of things.  What if I would have stayed in Dallas and got even more involved with the Village Church?  I was in intimate relationships with people that pushed me to serve the Lord, and I could possibly be getting a promotion at work soon.  Would that have been God’s will?  Truth is God sets us up with different decisions to make and pushes us to make them at times.  His will could have been in either place, but He showed me to Denver to use the gifts I have.  If you are waiting in your life to see what the will of God is and waiting on “His calling,”  you may just be delaying your obedience.  Wouldn’t this be disobedience?  I have many times looked for God’s call, but when I prayed, fasted, listened… He has always shown me what to do.   Maybe He doesn’t always show me by making it obvious, but He always pushed me along a path that I would choose His work.  If it is all about Him and not about us, wouldn’t that make it easier to follow knowing His will will be done?  I hope you are catching what I am throwing at you.

Lord You are good and your words never fail.

With One Desire…

Posted: February 2, 2012 in Uncategorized

I guess the first question when reading a new blog is, “What’s with the name?” or “Why name it that?”  Here is my answer.  I thought for about an hour for something that was meaningful. I didn’t want something that was just made up by a site or didn’t have truth to whatever my life might be like in a few years.  My mind kept thinking of Denver names, Pearl names, and missional names.  I kept thinking about alot of things but my heart was not satisfied.  I started listening to Leeland “Follow You” and found myself in a different ballpark after that.  This is when I thought of Starfield’s “Reign in Us.”  This song has long been a prayer of mine and a hope for a life that I have just started with my wife.  So give it a listen while reading the rest of my first blog!  

So the past month or so has been the most hectic time of my life.  The hecticness is all because my fiance (then) graduated, then we got married, and then we moved to Denver.  SLOW DOWN!  I know!  So here is what I want to tell you about this time period.  God has been so good.  First of all Joy has entrusted me to be her husband and leader of the house and 2nd God has entrusted us as bearers of His gospel to Denver.  What is more magnificent?  We started trying to figure out how this entire ministry and move to Colorado was going to happen and He just made sure that it did.  We had no money and through the service of others for the gospel, we had it.  So now we are in Denver, in an apartment cluttered by boxes of stuff.  I don’t know what to do but to thank the Lord for His provision and His grace.  I am grateful because Joy and I were once God’s enemy and adversary but now we are reconciled and called to do His work.  Not to rob Mickey Mouse but “Hot Dog Hot Dog Hot Diggity Dog!”

Romans 5: 6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 9Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life. 11More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.